different paths.
here is a short update to you guys saying what is happening now! these past few weeks and months there has been much doubt in my heart, and lots of questioning Gods will for my life. Much of this was because i simply didnt like what God was asking me to do and i was asking him for the simpler option.
when he gave me a simpler option it put me in a place of stagnancy. i was not satisfied at all... at the coffee shop i loved what i was doing but i was not content what i was doing because i was not being stretched. although at one point of my life waking up and coming to do shifts there had been difficult, i had grown in ywam blackfalds alot during that season and god was teaching me alot: i had grown in many friendships and found community. my heart missed something and god pointed me to something bigger.... human trafficking.
God showed me that his desire was for my story to be used to help people. For the first time in my life i could actually see that God had a plan and a purpose.... the things i had been through God was going to do something with. At that point i was in a very broken point in my life, everyone i knew was in college and i was wondering why i wasnt thriving as an artist.
Long story short when an opportunity came to get closer to God came, i was willing to take it. This whole time i thought it was about God giving me 'the desires of my heart' and giving me an opportunity to use my opportunity to use photography in a powerful way. It was truely never about that.
As i mentioned before... the plan was always to go to Kona this winter. I had made a 3 year commitment with the Awaken DTS. What is very ironic is the very first word God gave me about Kona (JAnuary of this year, 2012) was 'by this time next year you will be in Kona.'
Since the months passed being at home i became very restless. I wanted to grow and i did not want to be stagnant. I prayed and asked God that if it was in his will for me to go to Kona. Roughly a month ago today God started speaking to me and he asked me if he would go and staff the Voice for the Voiceless DTS.
here is the very funny thing about all this.... i had [now the time has massively dropped] 6 weeks to pack up my bags and leave everything i was comfortable with for good this time. it wasnt some fun awesome 6 month growing with God and all he has for me encounter.
Before when God had asked me to leave and staff the AWAKEN DTS for 3 years i told him 'well i don't know if your serious... so i will staff one year then pray about it and decide if i will go back' During these past few months God has really been speaking to me about making an impact, and how we can only do that when we are commited. This made me feel very convicted, i simply wasnt trusting God to provide for me and i believed that Kona would be a horrible experience. I didnt want it to be, but i was scared of living in vulnerability.... yet again. But sometimes thats when we really grow the most.
God told me to go and staff the Voice for the Voiceless DTS and i firmly belive that sometimes God opens the doors or he shuts them. Sometimes he gives us a choice and expects us to simply trust him, his character and who he has said 'this is who i have proved myself to be-will you trust me and be obedient?' Are we willing to do something the very first time God asks us and for me that is what staffing this DTS and going to Kona now and not in December is about.
God shouldn't have to say things 5 times to get our attention.
finances=scary god=bigger
spiritual attacks in order to get to kona=yucky. coming up alot.
faith can move mountains right?
God has taught me alot during these past few months. Although i do wish i could completely take a do-over sometimes and have spend more time in the word, engaging in the actual community around me. This time was very necessary for me. I learnt alot of things that i simply couldnt have any other way.
the word of God i've learnt (even though i have known this the whole time) is abiding and living and active. when you speak it over yourself daily, you actually feel a difference and your bible isnt just some 'peptalk' book whenever you want/choose to pull it out.
so. i am moving to Kona on July 5.
please pray for Gods financial provision and favor in this as all the ducks aren't yet in a row.
During this time i am trusting God and his perfect will.
-Chelsea.
here is a short update to you guys saying what is happening now! these past few weeks and months there has been much doubt in my heart, and lots of questioning Gods will for my life. Much of this was because i simply didnt like what God was asking me to do and i was asking him for the simpler option.
when he gave me a simpler option it put me in a place of stagnancy. i was not satisfied at all... at the coffee shop i loved what i was doing but i was not content what i was doing because i was not being stretched. although at one point of my life waking up and coming to do shifts there had been difficult, i had grown in ywam blackfalds alot during that season and god was teaching me alot: i had grown in many friendships and found community. my heart missed something and god pointed me to something bigger.... human trafficking.
God showed me that his desire was for my story to be used to help people. For the first time in my life i could actually see that God had a plan and a purpose.... the things i had been through God was going to do something with. At that point i was in a very broken point in my life, everyone i knew was in college and i was wondering why i wasnt thriving as an artist.
Long story short when an opportunity came to get closer to God came, i was willing to take it. This whole time i thought it was about God giving me 'the desires of my heart' and giving me an opportunity to use my opportunity to use photography in a powerful way. It was truely never about that.
As i mentioned before... the plan was always to go to Kona this winter. I had made a 3 year commitment with the Awaken DTS. What is very ironic is the very first word God gave me about Kona (JAnuary of this year, 2012) was 'by this time next year you will be in Kona.'
Since the months passed being at home i became very restless. I wanted to grow and i did not want to be stagnant. I prayed and asked God that if it was in his will for me to go to Kona. Roughly a month ago today God started speaking to me and he asked me if he would go and staff the Voice for the Voiceless DTS.
here is the very funny thing about all this.... i had [now the time has massively dropped] 6 weeks to pack up my bags and leave everything i was comfortable with for good this time. it wasnt some fun awesome 6 month growing with God and all he has for me encounter.
Before when God had asked me to leave and staff the AWAKEN DTS for 3 years i told him 'well i don't know if your serious... so i will staff one year then pray about it and decide if i will go back' During these past few months God has really been speaking to me about making an impact, and how we can only do that when we are commited. This made me feel very convicted, i simply wasnt trusting God to provide for me and i believed that Kona would be a horrible experience. I didnt want it to be, but i was scared of living in vulnerability.... yet again. But sometimes thats when we really grow the most.
God told me to go and staff the Voice for the Voiceless DTS and i firmly belive that sometimes God opens the doors or he shuts them. Sometimes he gives us a choice and expects us to simply trust him, his character and who he has said 'this is who i have proved myself to be-will you trust me and be obedient?' Are we willing to do something the very first time God asks us and for me that is what staffing this DTS and going to Kona now and not in December is about.
God shouldn't have to say things 5 times to get our attention.
finances=scary god=bigger
spiritual attacks in order to get to kona=yucky. coming up alot.
faith can move mountains right?
God has taught me alot during these past few months. Although i do wish i could completely take a do-over sometimes and have spend more time in the word, engaging in the actual community around me. This time was very necessary for me. I learnt alot of things that i simply couldnt have any other way.
the word of God i've learnt (even though i have known this the whole time) is abiding and living and active. when you speak it over yourself daily, you actually feel a difference and your bible isnt just some 'peptalk' book whenever you want/choose to pull it out.
so. i am moving to Kona on July 5.
please pray for Gods financial provision and favor in this as all the ducks aren't yet in a row.
During this time i am trusting God and his perfect will.
-Chelsea.
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