Kona 2012 & Beyond!

radical?

it's faces like these, faces of people i have met through ministry, through my everyday life, and even my own family that make me realize why i do what i do.

“My biggest fear, even now, is that I will hear Jesus' words and walk away, content to settle for less than radical obedience to Him. ”
― David Platt

If most of us were being truely honest with ourselves... We would be able to say that far to easily we walk away content with our own lives and that we have left God alone in the corner. Right now, I am reading a book by author & pastor David Platt called 'Radical: Taking Back Your Faith From The American Dream'

Many of you have probably heard of this book, but as a missionary struggling with financial support, trying to know God deeper and trust him to take on every area of my life..... it's all too scarily relevant.


This message should be something I already know & consistently do.... But it's not. I should be glad to serve him 'wherever/whenever' but more often than I would like to admit... I'm not always glad that I live in Hawaii. Most days if I were to be honest... I would say that I hate this season of training and how God is leading me to his heart. My flesh screams out 'God I want to be doing something PRODUCTIVE for you!'  'I am BORED'








I'm reminded of something a woman who was speaking to our group about a month ago taught us. She said simply "People were suckers for religion. The people cried out 'God we want to work for you! Show us what to do, give us rules! WE WANT TO WORK FOR YOU!' and Jesus kept responding back to them 'but I just want to talk to you. I just want to be your FRIEND!'"



There are days when I am so utterly frustrated. I'm frustrated because no matter how hard I try or what I do..... I CAN'T express how much Jesus means to me. Let me clarify that I DO love Jesus; but when it comes to expressing that.. I can't. A mindset creeps in and so easily says ''being a missionary IS my job, and I can't even do that...''


Far too often we 'adapt' the bible to suit our hearts and desires and needs... we don't recognize it as the living, breathing word of God. We see that our old mindsets have not shifted much, so much that we don't recognize that Jesus meant what he said. "The MOST important commandment is this... love the Lord your God with all your heart, mind, and soul; and love your neighbour as yourself."

How easily we forget that it is not about us.


God does not love me more because I can sing, or because I'm a missionary; and he never will. God's heart is for who I am when nobody is around me, and he has never been far off.

I often forget (just like you do) that it's not about me. I forget that Jesus has always cared whether at my darkest or my biggest 'glory moment.' Our identity as believers is found in him, and not our moments of failure.

The more we realize how big God is, the less it will take to get 'free-d.' Because then and only then will we realize that God has always cared, and we have always been free. His love has always been there & it has always been enough..


I have learnt to love this place and accept God's timing of everything. I have learned to laugh, cry, and *attempt to* rest. I have learnt to have compassion for others.

But at the same time, I have yet to get anywhere... and I am ok with that.
I will always be a work in progress.


But most importantly above everything else. I live for him because he is worth it & not because I feel like it. He is constant. I live for him because I want to make him known. I share who he is, because he is the good news: but like i said earlier-sometimes I get frustrated when I think of how to share who Jesus is to me. So bear with me :)

With Gratitude,
-Chelsea

sorry I have neglected this blog the past few weeks! I appreciate you all very much and am excited to see all of you back home these next upcoming weeks! :)


PS: The top photo is of a little Marshallese girl I work with during community outreach! I love her to bits & I am so excited to get to know her more!! =]

the small things

sometimes it is the simple things that matter so much.

this past week was a week of God beginning to stir in me things again. I realized i stopped myself from having dreams in the midst of running after God, Jesus was (and still very much is) my everything. But in the midst of trying to be perfect i realized i did alot of things wrong.

incredibly funny how that happens....


as im in a season of rediscovering who i am & my god given identity as a daughter.... i decided (with the encouragement of a really good friend) to write three lists.
one: things that i love to do
two: my dreams
three: things that i hate.


i realized all of these things were all things that i had control over!
"chelsea if you love photography then just take pictures" "chelsea if you love to worship then just WORSHIP!''  that makes it simple :)

so often we make life far more complicated than it needs to be.

i made a list of my favorite things, printed them off and hung them on my wall. black and white photos for me to look at everyday of the things that i love & wake up inspired.


Jesus. Is so good.



Although it's something so simple, it is alot for me.
After looking at a blank wall by my bed for the past 3 months.... Things like this: photos on the wall, your own special mug, etc.  make a house (or your small portion of the room with 5 other roomates) start to feel like home.



With Gratitude
-Chelsea

Kona Video Update #2!

September 2012 Update!

awakened.

one quarter is finished, i am changed and i am different.
the base is empty of changed young hearts going to the nations! i can't say that it wasn't hard for me to watch them go, that i wish i was one of the lucky ones going as well. Mostly, i miss their contagious joy and vibrant faith.

I have noticed & realized much more than ever, how much God grows you when you are in a community type setting. You begin to learn stuff you may never have learnt in your life before because you've never been put in those situations before. YWAM & Adaptability go hand in hand. 

I have waited awhile to blog about what i am going to share, (i also have not had the time) but i wanted to share of an amazing encounter i had with the Lord roughly two weeks ago.

It was Wednesday and we never had anything planned (Wednesday is usually when a speaker will come in and teach, then we do a local outreach in the afternoon). I had spent a couple weeks at that point running on empty. When you are in a environment where you are constantly in a 'prayer/worship mode' it can be very difficult to let the Lord reach you outside the 1-3pm time period. And even then, it is reserved.

This particular Weds, a DTS on campus decided to do a 13 hour 'burn'.
The last little while God has been meeting me in weird ways (read about it here). It's amazing how as people we can go to God and allow ourselves to become burnt out and empty again in a moment. That was precisely how i was feeling. I was mad at myself for allowing my heart to hit the empty gauge yet again.


During the 13 hour burn, each DTS group took one hour to commit to pray for their nation. The day began at 8:00am and went until 9:30pm. For me i had planned to go for 3 hours of those, that's what I felt the Lord saying and i wanted to prove to myself that I could actually do it. God ended up meeting me in massive ways.

I am a perfectionist with a crappy attitude. sometimes, a really really really crappy attitude. I am hard on myself, i don't allow myself to rest, i can't do things on my own strength. I will be the first to tell you (out of experience, giving up a dream that i desperately loved) that it is NOT worth it.

I still fall short, i still freak out, i still hit exhaustion.... But there comes a point where i want more than that. I don't want days to come where i allow myself to get so stressed out that i am in tears and hate everyone & everything.

Most times i don't understand why God moves, but i'm beginning to learn that he just DOES. God began to pour into me in a way that i didn't know was possible..... simply by sitting in his prescence all day. There is a chorus we sing here sometimes that goes like this.... "In your prescence there is fullness of joy"


When prayer/worship & missions meet it is beautiful. I'm fortunate to live in an environment where that happens and it is real. Jesus doesnt care about just the act of intercession happening on the earth...... He cares more about reaching his children. He loves me no more, no less than if i would have gotten an education, pursued photography further, had a perfect life...... He loves me the same whether I am poor or rich, He DOESN'T care that i try to hard 90% of the time, that i deal with fear & massive doubt, that i deal with self confidence...... He loves me because he made me.


These steps i have taken in Kona have not been easy, it has been a very difficult few months here. Sometimes you have to run through concrete bricks in order to get to the center of God's heart. That run, that final push is worth it.  God prepared me for this. His ways are not our ways.....

When we place our hearts in the center of God's hands.... while its hurting, while it feels like we are being stripped away of everything, while we feel vulnerable in the ugliest ways possible before him, days when we believe we do not deserve to be loved and like we cannot do anything right... Our hearts are in the safest place possible. Our God takes care of what he makes.





When we allow ourselves to worship without fear: we allow ourselves to encounter the person who made our heart and who knows how to take care of it. Renewal & change are just a cry away..... let it out. I promise you that the life you are craving to have with God is attainable, it's worth making sacrifices for, and it's worth fighting for.

I promise, because i've been there.
God is so much bigger than our fears of what others think of us.

Blog Archives #2

This time last year. {vegas}

Last Night we had an outreach on Freemont Street!
We normally go to Freemont Street quite a bit on the weekends to go to a coffee shop there called 'The Beat' and to spend our free time. The atmosphere there between night and day is quite different, it's something you have to be there to see there and believe. As we started walking up and hearing the music I started getting really excited-the Enemy was NOT going to stomp us down!

Here was what we did....





We did what we would normally do-except we made it really public and we let people who wanted God come to us. I started off with my partner Arielle, and after awhile [i was holding the sign for a little bit] i went off and did evangelism by myself.]  Since there where many of us around the same area, we were able to do that and we were watching out for eachother. Here is some of what went down last night.

I tried the tatic on two people of walking up to them 'so, what do you think of those crazy people offering free prayer over there? what are your thoughts on God' one young women (who looked to be about 17 and had her younger brother with her) said "oh, i really don't like it-i don't know what i really think about God..." She was very leniant towards prayer. She then mentioned that she had been in a car accident a few weeks ago and was still having alot of pain in her shoulder; i asked her if she wouldn't mind if i prayed for the pain in her shoulder to be relieved and she didnt.
























{I dont remember what happened that night, or if that woman got healed.
God has already preparing me then for right now. :) }

blog archives #1

today and tomorrow, i will be posting a couple 'old blog' drafts that i found.
this one was from may i think.






"won't you let this be a sacrifice, let me dedicate my life to worship you."

brain running faster than the speed of life, feeling like i could run straight into the wall and nobody would see it. but Jesus does and tells me to rest? this is something that constantly baffles me...

As humans... we never think that we have pride. even when we're doing things the right way, our ego manages to creep in and destroy us. We pray and we pray and then.... when God answers that prayer outside of our timing, ego and pride kicks in. Fear kicks in. Trusting in God means trusting in his timing too-then why do we run, why do we fear? This was something that happened after first coming back and into Vegas my debrief week.... I have said many times that I trust God, and i do. I trust him to provide, i trust him with my health, to see people saved, and EVERYTHING.... those are words i don't take back.


But when fear creeps in, i've found that our instant reaction is to hit the ground running and say 'i didn't mean that actually....' and run away from what we know is best from us. Fear has a way of making us think with 'practical' earthly he said/she said thinking that is deceitful. It makes us comfort our weaknesses and pain and live in them, fear refuses to let us confront our pains and weaknesses and live free....


Sometimes, when God asks us to do something it isn't our instant reaction to say 'yes God! i'm excited!' We hit the ground running, we become fearful and we don't always understand what he is doing. What the world tells us is that God is 'big and scary' and he doesn't want whats best for us.... because the world likes being comfortable, and obviously a God that wants you to grow most in situations of uncomfort


Quite often we put our practical thinking above Gods sovereignty and his truth....


When God first asked me to go to Kona..... I wasn't interested.

learning to trust god? check
learning to be wreckless for him? check
worshipping without fear of man? check

Lately God has walked into my life in new ways, and he has radically been changing me. God's grace and radical love has begun to pour into every part of me. In a word.... it is hard, it is startling, it is confusing, and it is beautiful. Many times in my life I cried out with God asking him to reveal himself. He never answered those prayers then, but he is answering them now. I learnt through the dessert phases on my life things that I may never have realized from simple wisdom from the Holy Spirit.



Today has been a day of rest. Much needed rest.
Although God has taught me alot, I haven't taken alot of time to ponder and cherish what he is doing. For the first time in my life I am learning to live a wreckless life for God. I have no idea what is going to happen after this season here in Hawaii-but God has given me tremendous peace about it all.... This season is turning out to be exactly what I asked and prayed for a really long time.


God has begun to teach & show me how sweet his presence is. "Do you recognize this place? It's the place you were made. The place where your father made you." Everytime i enter into the prescence of God i cant help but think of that quote. When we worship, it can be awkward, it can be scary and fear can rush in like a flood until you let your walls break down. Then it is beautiful.

We become like children again. We encounter the prescence of God. We become abandoned to the world's standard of mediocry and death. We become abandoned to God.






Think of a popcorn maker:
 there is a long pause as the machine heats up. you heavily anticipate for the popcorn (fruit) but you have to wait for the machine to get hot.
A few kernels pop because they have come in contact with the heat.
A few kernels pop but if you were to unplug the machine then.... you would not have nearly enough popcorn for a snack, only a few morsels. There is some fruit (popcorn) but not enough.

If you wait long enough.... All of a sudden.... All the Kernels have exploded. but eventually they all turn into something wonderful!

In life, some things take longer than others to develop.









"even if you have no plans to become better.... he (God) will still love you because that is his nature.
what will change is our ability to receive his (God's) love"The Inheritance by Jonathan David Helser
God is putting me in situations i have literally prayed and asked for for years, and they are now coming to fruition. This monday night God encountered me in a very different way that he normally does.

He began to show me a place of closeness & intimacy with his heart. I sat there and i asked God "what is this emotion???? What is this place."

he simply responded "it's joy"






Shortly after that I sang to God out of that place. Feeling full spiritually but still longer for more for the first time in a very long time. Then.... out of nowhere the room where a bunch of wreckless worshippers were silent. I was still singing.

The worship leader stopped singing. The room was quiet. Except for me.... Then I opened my eyes and noticed he was looking at me. "Excuse me? Will you sing over us?"

I cowered. I thought it was a joke, but no. This guy was dead serious. I cowered and slowly got up to the stage. A microphone was handed to me-everyone was staring at me and i began to laugh. God then began to speak to my heart and ask me "will you actually go for it??"


every fear i used to have about worship simply was not present. although i was nervous, fear began to vanish. although this moment only lasted less than 8 minutes it felt much longer. i cannot tell you what i sang because i don't even remember.

by the end of that night i had never been SO glad to stop singing, but i had never been so glad to encounter so much freedom and joy. it came from my inner voice, the place i never used to have words for being released.




the love of god damages fear.

-Chelsea

August Newsletter!

hasta luego facebook!

Hi friends!

I am writing this blog to explain my decision to delete my facebook account. Wasting time on facebook has never been anything new to me, and if you live in the 21st century... Congratulations! you have probably found yourself in the same boat as well. 

there are several reasons why im deleting my account this friday, but here is one of them.
-i hate feeling like i constantly have to check my facebook oherwise i am dissapointing somebody




there is a tremendous difference between writing and venting. God has given me the desire and gift of writing and there are several desires deep on my heart. I also care to much about the opinion of others.  Facebook is a place where there is freedom to say what you feel. many times this can be great for raising advocacy & awareness about global issues (remember Kony 2012 about 6 months ago?)

But because of this, due to the nature of the internet your communicating just words and you aren't having a face to face conversation. Things often get misinterpret in both good and bad ways.
All of you are probably in the same boat and could say that 'if i had 5 cents for everytime somebody.....': got offended by something on facebook, got offended by a facebook message, seen a friendship deteriorate because of something on facebook, etc. 'i would be rich.'





Because of how much i am on facebook, i never write or give updates to people ministry wise. writing is something that brings me great joy yet i dont take time to pour my heart out for god in this way.

the freedom with a blog is that you can write, and there is an audience much bigger than just your exclusive facebook friends.  Often times when you know somebody, you are partial to the words they say. Often times you have prior opinions about that person so it makes you partial  to what they say, whether it is actually coming from their heart that in itself creates distance. i have had this happen to me, and have been guilty of this as well. we make people idols in our lives and listen to every word they say, or without even realizing it we disregard them entirely.





our generation is daunted & plagued by fear. i personally don't think that something like facebook helps at all in trying to get rid of this in our live, not that facebook is bad. most individuals in my generation of young adults constantly by fear of what people think of them. As believers fear has NO place in our life, yet we allow it in because we don't think we can get rid of it. The truth is your right, you can't get rid of fear. But the love of God can.


For so many of us (including myself), we allow fear to rule our life, and our very thoughts. we refuse to step out for God because we're scared, we often disobey God because we are scared of what others will think. For me personally even after i have taken a leap of faith... the voice of fear still steps in and tells me 'are you sure you are supposed to be here.' Fear will always be there, the power to get rid of fear will always be there..... but how much time are we spending getting to know our heavenly father? do we actually know the love of God?? it is upsetting that most people don't/



Facebook is not the source of all the evil. However for me personally i have begun to wonder am i just being a 'slack-tivist' with social justice issues & am i engaging in the world around me and fighting a spiritual war(Ephesians 6:10-12) :and i know that i am not.... There is a greater war almost always before there is spiritual fruit.... satan does not want the kingdom of God to flourish. I am beginning to realize that more and more each day because of some of the things going on in my life right now.





Sure not being on facebook (whether permanent or for only a season) may cause me to miss out on opportunities, seeing those treasured memories.. But discovering my God & saviour in a new way and feeding myself spiritually by reading the bible, diving deep into more books and authentic relationships will not. That is something that will never be a waste of my time...Im a little tired of being starving.


with gratitude & love,
-Chelsea

breath escapes my mouth

theres are moments in this life that leave you utterly dumbfounded and speechless. moments that there are simply no words to describe, whether that is caused by anger, confusion or happiness. its never the less incredible. how a moment can literally take your breath away and break your heart at the same time. that's an emotion i can only imagine a mom with her newborn baby has. the frustration and anticipation of pregnancy is over, and that loved baby is finally there.



in life there's moments we have ignorance & frustration, complete peace, and everything in between. as humans on our own we are can be every single one of these emotions. we become to frustrated to be able to love, or too happy to care.


when we are in those moments, how incredibly easy it is to focus on the 'thing' bringing us anger or happiness. how do we fall back into that place?  we simply realize that everything comes from god, and if its not.... he's GOING to birth something big out of it.

we choose to fall back into a place of real joy that's not dependent on my situation. we forget how much freedom there is when we say no to us and yes to him.... he's in control, no matter what i say or do.and the more i realize THAT..... the more unbelievably glad i really don't know anything and big major decisions are not up to me to decide....[yet]

so i am falling back into love, falling back into grace.

falling back into faith. falling back into simplicity and love with my father,

and as i begin to fall, and struggle i find open arms and eyes reaching for me. eyes of love complete with a burning fire and then i realize i know this man.... and i begin to cry. he has given the world for me, delivered me from my self hatred, pain, and my hell. yet for so long i have ignored him, fought him, been furious with him, blamed him.... because i simply didnt see thw whole picture.

then i realize he has never left. but how my heart has been indepent and broken and has neglected this love. my mind begins to wander when i accuse this man of abandoning me. my mind becomes easily offended and i focus to long on the 'things.' yet however legitimate they maybe, they have led me away from the one who cares most about everything, no one has loved more than this man has.

i realize his arms are arms of hope. i begin to see with eyes bigger than my entire face that he has actually never left. these arms have been beside me the whole time despite my screaming, my trauma, my doubt, my hoplessness and fear. i look up from my self pity and agony and am amazed at how tired those arms are..... how long they have waited to console, and comfort.i ask myself how long have these arms of hope been there for me to grab hold of-but everything about my world tells me that my god isnt real. so i begin to believe the lies and grab hold of my pain. i begin to console it and let it grow like a desgusting stray animal.

in my flesh i wonder why this gross animal with diseases and fleas hasnt died. i begin to look at these arms and i realize ive never wanted affirmation, or finances, or peace of mind.i wanted my best friend back.


brethtaking moments?realizing he desires to change me far more than i want to change myself. realizing he has never left...










my heart when it was once wrecked, once black, once hard, once full of bitter angry tears. i grab onto these arms of hope and i cry. and my best friend, my jesus slowly in the easiest and gentlest way he knows how begins to scrub the mould, mildew and spilt blood out of the teatowel of my heart. i cry and i am amazed that depite all my accusing: all my best friend ever wanted was to make me a white canvas again. all he has wanted was to give me the freedom to dream again...





and as i look at his eyes of grace my heart is wrecked again when i think of how long my jesus, my best friend must have patiently waited for that moment.my heart is happy in the midst of trials because, gods finally moving.. despite long seasons of pain, despite how ive ignored him.... my best friend is always trying to win my heart. the lies i have told myself begin to fade and i finally learn how to not anticipate anything, but to be content.

my best friend is patient and he loves me.... who would have ever thought?
yet i am undone and amazed.  my bestfriend knew exactly what i needed and i finally learn learn to walk unashamed of being his daughter, disciple and close friend.

how he loves.

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THANK YOU FOR JOURNEYING WITH ME! -Chelsea

memory lane.

many words come to mind when i think of las vegas. the first of those is 'home.'



this time last year i was nothing short of a mess. i was furious at God, i was burnt out and eshausted, stress was my middle name and i was hiding my battles. true community was not something i had ever truely known. going through the motions and pretending to be 'ok' had been my life for more years than i would care to admit.

i was hungry for something that i had no idea what it was. having a heart for the lost doesnt really work unless the person who can truely heal wounds is a part of your life. i craved seeing a dramaric change, i was ignorant to think i could do that. i wanted alot of things and none of them had Jesus at the center. i didnt care about gods timing i cared about mine.

this past year has been long, its been extremely diffucilt, but its also been amazing. God cared more about me than i did, God cared more about filling my heart & changing me than he did giving me what i wanted. only my maker and saviour truely knew my heart. he knew what i needed and after years of just praying to God screaming to him asking for something different... and it wasnt what i thought it would be. i look back now and realize that if God had answered every deperate prayer i'd repeatedly prayed during that season.... i would not enjoy my life today. i definately would not be where i am now.



where there is death/sin, grace abounds all he more.
never once had i been in a season that god began to reveal to me that all the time. i didnt think that he cared. here in kona im am realizing some of the things he had taught me in vegas all the more powerfully. God heals, God is a father and God is love.

although some minor things like my fears of flying have not gone away.... figuring out that when i lean and trust on him hasn't. grace is a gift, pain is temporary, but jesus is eternal. and i have never been more glad.






i could not have gone on those journey without 12 incredible people. [and some really special staff] i am proud of each of you. i love each of you and i am so excited for what god is doing in each of you.

Sadie, Arielle, Cherilyn, Meredith, Hope, Cathy, Abbey, Katie, Himmat, Sean, Joe, & Jake....
i love you all so much and im excited to see where God takes each of you. there are no words....



looking back on the best days of my life right now. all the crazy laughter fests, arguing, sleepless nights, times of praying with & for eachother and wondering what the heck we are going to do with our lives. i wouldnt take any of it away and if i had the chance to do this all again, i dont think i could pack all my bags fast enough.

xoxo.
munchkin

{week 2 in Kona!}

During Kids Camp, the Kids prayed for all of the islands of the world (including the marshall islands) on the giant map!

 

the famous 'flags' representing some of the many different nations that have come across this base.

hello friends and families!

i have been in Kona for  two weeks now! At first it was very hard to adjust to this place because of the hot weather and all of the people but i am very happy to be here. God has definately shown himself in amazing ways since getting here.


For those of you who do not know, Currently i am in Kailua-Kona, Hawaii and full time staff the base here. I am taking a program called 'the leadership track' to help me grow as a leader before i staff. Next July I will began staffing the AWAKEN DTS. As part of this program we are in the prayer room 2 hours everyday, as well as serve the base wherever help is needed most during the mornings. We also have lots of scriputre to memorize during the whole of this course: the goal is to try and memorize the sermon on the mount (Matthew 5-7)

During theses past few weeks we have started to do our local outreaches! Each Wendsay we will be going to play games with the a group of kids and getting to know and disciple them. The Marshallese are a group of people who are currently spread all around the states and various parts of the world. (read more about the history of the marshallese here)


This week was different than our normal outreaches. The Marshallese came to OUR base for a field trip! :)   Part of this was so they culd interact with other kids and get off with their familiar areas. Also so that the younger kids on base could experience culture as many of their parents are missionaries as well. Many of the marshallese kids come from very broken families/no father figure due to the circumstances of what has happened. It is hard for many of them to asscociate with Americans/Westerners. One of the things that really touched me personally was how the kids were saying by the end of our first outreach 'it was really fun to play with the adults!' since they never get to interact with people that often. I am so incredibly excited to get to know these kids better!!

My current plans are... I will not be returning this october like i originally planed. God has really pressed on my heart to do this leadership program for the entire year that is required. As of right now... I will be coming home this winter because i need a visa (i came in with a b1 visa that only allows me to stay in America for 6 months). After completing this track (unless God tells me to do something different before then), i will begin staffing the AWAKEN DTS.

Seeing the AWAKEN DTS that is going on right now from afar makes me excited to be apart of it. My time in Kona right now is a time for me to go closer to God and find out what exactly he has for me! :)

PRAY FOR:

-open hearts for the marshallese children

-realization of Gods love for the marshallese

-gods financial provision

-an open heart to grow during this season

-grow in friendships while i am here

streams of living water {1 week in Kona!}

cul·ti·vat·ed, cul·ti·vat·ing, cul·ti·vates

a. To improve and prepare (land), as by plowing or fertilizing, for raising crops; till.

b. To loosen or dig soil around (growing plants).

2. To grow or tend (a plant or crop).

3. To promote the growth of (a biological culture).

4. To nurture; foster.

this week has been full, i am learning to be full. i have only been to the beach once since i have been here. love. {although this heat is hot and sticky and gross, God truely is awesome}. Right now im learning to be planted. this past week has been filled with lots of time in the prayer room {corporately as a school, interceding and worshipping}, serving and helping on base, and a community outreach full of amazing kids. the local outreach was the highlight of my entire week. the simplicity of just playing with kids and getting to know them is awesome.



everyday we are in the prayer room from 1-3pm (except local outreach day) interceding and worshipping together over several different areas as an entire school. this has been especially difficult for me, but God is still showing me things through it. Learning how to press deeper when you are really uncomfortable-great. I am starting to think that I have never learnt to appreciate worship. When you worship all the time, you begin to have a deeper appreciation of it. Praying outloud can be intimidating, but getting out of your bubble is worth it. Growing takes commitment. Commitment is scary.



Originally my plan was to come to Kona for 3 months, go home support raise, etc. Then come back at the beginning of next year and actually 'be committed.' I have come and started to realize that you will never grow unless you plant youtrself. That has been difficult. I am starting to see that the reason i wanted to go home sooner was because i wanted control. I didn't fully trust, so now after praying about it..... Kona is my new home.











WHAT'S NEXT....
I will be on fulltime staff at this base for the next 3.5 years. First to be grow and have a time of training. It is not just about 'staffing DTS's' but it is about getting that foundation i need for whatever i go into. Life is not just about your next step-but planning ahead.

The goal of the leadership school here is to spend time with God, gain that foundation in our own lives in a more profound way. Developping discipline, and making your relationship with God a lifestyle.Once I am finished, the plan is to staff the awaken DTS.



I am here for this next year to be 'planted;' i desire to learn these things and what they mean.. Personally, the idea and thought of being planted somewhere scares me..... I very much like to be fluid. HOWEVER. Im excited to be poured and turned into concrete. This season for me will be difficult, but i know i will be better at the end of it. It is hard to imagine what this year will hold-but i know that God is beyond and bigger than all my fears.





This is a verse that sticks out to me for this season....
Psalm 12:5-6 (amplified)

^"[5]Now will I arise, says the Lord, because the poor are oppressed, because of the groans of the needy; I will set him in safety and in the salvation for which he pants.  [6] The words and promises of the Lord are pure words, like silver refined in an earthen furnace, purified seven times over."

Living in Kona and just like while I was in Vegas, requires finances. As a missionary i live completely by faith as well as the financial support that people give. During my time here, i am required to have $650 in monthly support each month while i am apart of this leadership track. This cost covers my rent, food, additional needs (toiletries, etc.) and books that I need each month for the leadership track. Currently i only have enough monthly support to cover my very basic needs. This does not include rent.



Because of my plans to stay longer this means I need additional health insurance while i am living in Kona. This next season for me will be about leaning on the word of God and learning to trust.







PRAISE REPORTS:
God's faithfulness.
Getting to Kona safely
San Francisco Airport found my luggage!


PRAISE REQUESTS:
That i would meet people during my season here.
Continued Financial Provision
Health (healing for migraines)







Thank you to each of you for your continued support thus far. You have no idea how much your prayers, finances to be able to do what i do is a huge encouragement and blessing to me.

Right now i am thankful for Gods comfort and the fact that he does not change. Not once not ever. Leaning into this-is what i need however difficult. My prayer is that God would show me how to begin this race, and he would show me how to run.

if you are interested in giving a financial donation or becoming a monthly supporter, please e-mail me here







love and grattitude.....
-Chelsea

im here! (kona)

Hello everyone!
sorry for the long and overdue update!


i arrived in Kona at about 8:30pm July 5! The time difference here is that we are 4 hours ahead. That has been a little interesting getting used to. Hawaii feels alot like Thailand, mostly because of the trees here.  They are called banyan trees, they are gorgeous and i want to climb all over them.

On Friday I had my first day of  'classes.' The leadership track here is for staff & is designed to make your relationship with God stronger. During the mornings we practice serving the base wherever it is most needed, and in the afternoons for two hours each day we have corporate worship and intercession. My 'work duty' for the summer will be hospitality, cleaning and getting rooms ready for all the speakers, etc. But for many of the other staff doing the leadership track/school it will be helping doing the summer surge.

Summer Surge is when people from all over the world will be coming to help build new buildings on the campus. The base here is fairly big-but the problem is we are needing room for MORE! This gives people an opportunity to use their giftings and talents to be apart of what God is doing internationally at this base in Kona. more about summer surge

Serving the base wherever it's needed allows us to practice and put into our lives 'servant leadership'. On top of both these things we have to memorize scripture and alot of it. The goal is to try and memorize the entire sermon on the mount as well as do alot of book reports during the school.

I will post a video update later this week once i have had a full week here!



PRAYER REQUESTS:
-one of my pieces of luggage was lost on my calgary/san francisco flight. Please pray the airline finds it and it gets here soon!
-dilligence in my studying
-that i would begin to meet people and grow in relationships.
-that i would grow in expectations
-that i would be open to what God is going to do during this time.


if i had a camera i would post some pictures of what my base looks like for you guys!
just picture palm trees, cool looking trees, flowers all over the place and you are pretty much set. this place remind me alot of thailand. :)

these are the times when joy is born, despite the sadness you could have picked instead

ECCLESIASTES 3:11 & 12
“He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also, he has put eternity into man's heart, yet so that he cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end. I perceived that there is nothing better for them than to be joyful and to do good as long as they live”

During these past few weeks the amount of finances that God has provided has literally blown my mind away sometimes. On June 16, my friend and I had a silent auction fundraiser and we were able to get roughly 40 items. We raised a little under $1400.00! I had always heard stories of ‘and then God provided all this money in one night!’ but I actually never believed that it could happen for me. At the beginning of silent auction day, I was borderline stressed…. There was so much that still needed to be done.

The date had been picked weeks in advance, before I even knew I was going to Kona this soon. It managed to perfectly work out with when I would be leaving! I had so many mixed thoughts that day, at that point I hadn’t even heard back from Kona so I wasn’t even sure I was coming out this summer. Although I had prayed all week & all month that our silent auction would go well… that day as I was praying about the outcome of our night I said to God ‘it would be really cool if we raised $1500.00…’ Half the money was going to Robin, and half was going to myself. Both of us needed to raise significantly more than that in order to go, but being able to raise that much would have been very hopeful!    I never actually expected God to bring in that much money in one night, but the fact that he did was very encouraging to the both of us.

Money coming in very weird places. This certainly did NOT happen before I was going to Vegas, but I think God knew that I would ultimately go to Vegas no matter the fear because I was scared of being disobedient. I do not have that same assurance with Kona. This time when I go to Kona, the circumstances are much different.

I will not begin staffing the Awaken DTS until January next year, I was not accepted to staff the DTS that I applied for (separate from AWAKEN that would begin this September/give me something to do until awaken starts up)… But regardless of both these things I was still accepted into the leadership school. This was two weeks ago and I had to decide suddenly if I was actually going to Kona or not. God has continued to provide in awesome ways and the way that he would not be providing if he did not want me to go. Even though things keep coming up and complications with this school I have full confidence that God will sort everything out. My only job is to be obedient to what God has said. Nothing else.

My biggest fear in regards to going was finances. I am going to Kona without a clue what is happening next… there is a possibility that I could begin ‘general’ staff at YWAM Kona right after I finish this school, or that I could go home directly after it is finished. Either way because of the timing of all of this…. I only have a 3 month visa and can only live in Hawaii for 6 months or less.

After my flights were paid for (God someone sponsored my flight to Kona! PTL), insurance was bought…. I barely would have enough money to cover my first months rent/food & other expenses. Because of the money that came in from this silent auction and other donations (plus the final paychecks from my last few weeks of working at he greenhouse) I will have enough to possibly cover 2 months rent. During this school there are expenses for books, resources, etc. This combined with my own financial needs make my ‘cost of living’ in Hawaii $600 a month.

God has spoken to me a lot about worry…. How I do it too much.
And sure that is natural and ‘normal’ in the life of a missionary but I don’t want to do it. There is a difference in being concerned and being worried. One is healthy and one is not.

Ive noticed and seen in my life how when I worry two things happen…. I let that thought fester, im not focusing on God/who he is, and there is absolutely no fruit that comes from it. Worrying can cause us to pray a lot more. BUT we are then praying from a place of fear where we are ultimately not actually trusting God for the final result. If you are a normal human being, congratulations. Worrying is normal.

Worry is when we make the decision to simply not trust God. Scary thought.
A scripture that I want to live my life by is in Habbukuk

{Hab. 3:17-19}
Though the fig tree should not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines, the produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food, the flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the LORD; I will take joy in the God of my salvation. GOD, the Lord, is my strength; he makes my feet like the deer's; he makes me tread on my high places. To the choirmaster: with stringed instruments.

we have to remember that it is never our place to ask god for things in the first place. We are corrupt human beings who need God, we cannot save ourselves. Our simple delight should be who he is. God will do amazing things once we focus on loving him first. The same spirit that caused the greatest revivals on earth lives on us.




During this time the biggest thing that I can ask for from you guys is your prayers.
Of course being a missionary I have several financial needs and if you are interested in supporting me either monthly or a one time donation, please prayerfully consider giving to what I will be doing in Kona. This leadership school will cultivate seeds that will allow me to be an effective leader and staff during Disipleship Training Schools.


PRAYER REQUESTS
that I would not focus on the ‘old me’ during my leadership school
that I would continue to be open to this next season
that i would continue to make time for God despite the busyness
health/my migraines would no longer be an issue..


If you would like to make a donation, please send a cheque or money order to the following address:

Chelsea Buettner
Box 2407
Blackfalds, AB
T0M 0J0





July 5 July 5 July 5.      5 Days 5 Days 5 Days? Time to start packing! =]

different paths.

here is a short update to you guys saying what is happening now! these past few weeks and months there has been much doubt in my heart, and lots of questioning Gods will for my life. Much of this was because i simply didnt like what God was asking me to do and i was asking him for the simpler option.

when he gave me a simpler option it put me in a place of stagnancy. i was not satisfied at all... at the coffee shop i loved what i was doing but i was not content what i was doing because i was not being stretched. although at one point of my life waking up and coming to do shifts there had been difficult, i had grown in ywam blackfalds alot during that season and god was teaching me alot: i had grown in many friendships and found community. my heart missed something and god pointed me to something bigger.... human trafficking.


God showed me that his desire was for my story to be used to help people. For the first time in my life i could actually see that God had a plan and a purpose.... the things i had been through God was going to do something with. At that point i was in a very broken point in my life, everyone i knew was in college and i was wondering why i wasnt thriving as an artist.

Long story short when an opportunity came to get closer to God came, i was willing to take it. This whole time i thought it was about God giving me 'the desires of my heart' and giving me an opportunity to use my opportunity to use photography in a powerful way. It was truely never about that.


As i mentioned before... the plan was always to go to Kona this winter. I had made a 3 year commitment with the Awaken DTS. What is very ironic is the very first word God gave me about Kona (JAnuary of this year, 2012) was 'by this time next year you will be in Kona.'

Since the months passed being at home i became very restless. I wanted to grow and i did not want to be stagnant. I prayed and asked God that if it was in his will for me to go to Kona. Roughly a month ago today God started speaking to me and he asked me if he would go and staff the Voice for the Voiceless DTS.

here is the very funny thing about all this.... i had [now the time has massively dropped] 6 weeks to pack up my bags and leave everything i was comfortable with for good this time. it wasnt some fun awesome 6 month growing with God and all he has for me encounter.

Before when God had asked me to leave and staff the AWAKEN DTS for 3 years i told him 'well i don't know if your serious... so i will staff one year then pray about it and decide if i will go back' During these past few months God has really been speaking to me about making an impact, and how we can only do that when we are commited. This made me feel very convicted, i simply wasnt trusting God to provide for me and i believed that Kona would be a horrible experience. I didnt want it to be, but i was scared of living in vulnerability.... yet again. But sometimes thats when we really grow the most.


God told me to go and staff the Voice for the Voiceless DTS and i firmly belive that sometimes God opens the doors or he shuts them. Sometimes he gives us a choice and expects us to simply trust him, his character and who he has said 'this is who i have proved myself to be-will you trust me and be obedient?' Are we willing to do something the very first time God asks us and for me that is what staffing this DTS and going to Kona now and not in December is about.

God shouldn't have to say things 5 times to get our attention.
finances=scary      god=bigger
spiritual attacks in order to get to kona=yucky. coming up alot.

faith can move mountains right?
God has taught me alot during these past few months. Although i do wish i could completely take a do-over sometimes and have spend more time in the word, engaging in the actual community around me. This time was very necessary for me. I learnt alot of things that i simply couldnt have any other way.

the word of God i've learnt (even though i have known this the whole time) is abiding and living and active. when you speak it over yourself daily, you actually feel a difference and your bible isnt just some 'peptalk' book whenever you want/choose to pull it out.



so. i am moving to Kona on July 5.
please pray for Gods financial provision and favor in this as all the ducks aren't yet in a row.
During this time i am trusting God and his perfect will.

-Chelsea.

awaken...

My soul quakes inside. Life is on it’s quivering edge.

YOU are what this generation needs to soar.

Too long we have tried to be love sick and passionate, too long we have tried to love on people while at the same time we have let our insides rot and fall apart.

We are decrepit without you.

we must accept that we are not simply humanitarians.

we are revolutionaries. we are radicals

we are not simply the least of these.

we were called to know you. we simply want you.

that’s all there is yet, its enough, yet…. all that’s in me wants more.

all you lost sons and precious daughters in the valley of the shadow of death, where the enemy has stolen mocked, choked, laughed….. he will never win.
valleys of living water rain down, let your anointing come ever fresher. your eyes of fire look lovingly and reach these.

Look to the miry clay and sing to these sons and daughters. Cry awaken.

To those screaming in the grips of death. Scream awaken.

For he was whipped for our iniquities………. His afflictions bore us peace.

SING awaken. WAKE UP you sons and daughters.


show us how to rest. show us how to run, show us how to race with feet like deer. Spirit of god wash over us.

Let us have the honor of being carriers of your glorious kingdom.

We want to run faster… teach our feet to keep up with our hearts that our lovesick for you.

Peace you will give. Love you will pour. Grace you poured out. Purity you have redeemed and lavished.

sons and daughters. awaken….  

8 years later. satan aint never gonna bring me down.

this is just a very quick post to say that life is changing very quickly. sometimes God can ask us to do really crazy stuff and take leaps of faith. I would appreciate your prayers during this time and during this next season.


im about to do a thorough blog soon about my fundraiser and more of my kona plans.
my parents were gone this past week and it was nice to have a mini vacation. to be able to be a mini introvert and process alot of things by myself and much needed was awesome. awesome..... fantasticly awesome!

for myself, its very hard to know the difference between spending a few days by myself and being a hermit. i really enjoy being a hermit and that is something i really need to stop doing. its honestly something gods tested me on since ive gotten home since from dts. God is so faithful. thats the only thing i can really say coming out of this season, and to think that its only the beginning amazes me....


'he places the lonely in family' i am beyond thankful for ywam and dts. that scripture is exactly what God did in my life. when i hear the word family now, im no longer resentful or bitter or spiteful or hurt think 'well thats great... but that is never going to happen for me!'


the kingdom of god, and the center of gods will is where i wanna be.
and it seems that god has finally taken me to a place where im finally ready to be there.

after 8 years of being a christian [this weekend is the anniversary of the weekend of when i got saved.] i have finally gotten over grieving those 8 years of wishing 'God why didn't you intervene sooner when nobody else in my life cared'   there were alot of times when nobody else did. When my times of pleaing for help were responded by a smack in the face or a 'when things get worse.' type response. But no matter how bad things were getting i was too stubborn to believe that the God i was taught about wasnt good. even though he seemed really distant.


God obviously didn't think they were years wasted otherwise i would be in heaven now. otherwise i would  be on the long broken rocky road still.. I literally cringe and shudder when i think at where i could be in life right now. The people i minister too in the future could very well have been me had Jesus not saved my life. God believed in redemption and using my past for good. despite all the depression, scary near suicide attempts, God still loved me enough to give his only son. There was a risk that i would not take salvation but he thought it was worth it..


I am not going to say 'God why did you die on the cross'
i just want to take this moment in time to say thank you. It seems like now after all of these years of pain and doubt, i have finally learnt to have grace on myself. One of the things i noticed from past journals is that i really tried to have a real relationship with God but i put so much pressure on myself to make it happen. I was never taught, I never knew that God does not expect anything of us. I knew that at the back of my head but its funny how those things creep in.

It seems like i finally get it. God has placed desires on my heart and you know what?
'seek first the lord and he will give you the desires of your heart'
desires are not bad. i have to accept the fact that loving god is not bad, having talents is not bad, wanting to be able to reading my bible and spend x amount of time with God a day is not a bad thing. God tells me this in his word-it's true that we can do these things legalistically. But anytime that anyone tells us anything different unless what God says.... it's wrong and its as simple as that.



Im glad that now i've finally got it. after 8 years of striving i can finally learn how to simply WALK with God. There will be seasons of running, difficulties but its about getting into a rhythm that is simple. Being Gods friend, being in a rhythm that is of steadfast love and grace and hearing the heartbeat of our father God. So that whatever season is about to hit us in the face..... we are unshakable.


THAT is what i want and that is true christianity.





"I''m not looking for the lesser of two evils. I am asking for a miracle from heaven called revival." -Lou Engel

twists and jagged edges {a poem}

Rollercoaster {a poem}

I have learnt is that life with God truely is a rollercoaster….
You never know where he will take you, the ride is terrifying but we always have a ‘safety belt’ on.

God is never going to kick us out of the rollercoaster and launch us out, he’ll never accidently ‘undo’ the seatbelt’ just because he is annoyed with our screaming.

Sometimes we become so terrified by the ride itself that we forget it’s about the destination. We forget that we have a seatbelt on the whole time…. If that seatbelt where to ever come ‘undone,’ boy would God would be in trouble!

We forget that Jesus said ‘IT IT FINISHED’

The rollercoaster can be about the ride, but for people who hate rollercoasters it is about the destination. {as a roller coaster hater myself, I quite often think WHY is this fun!?}
In Gods eyes…. Its about the ride and not the destination. Sometimes the rollercoaster ride is fun and when its over were sad. Sometimes the ride can be quite frankly hell…. But its only once were at the destination that we can actually appreciate the ride we just went on.

We get so caught up and anxious that we forget that god made that rollercoaster, he knows EVERY twist and turn of it… just like he made us. He isn’t surprised when life there is something we never planned, maybe he wanted it there all along. He isn’t surprised when we freak out and say to him ‘umm God-did you see what just happened!?!?’ he probably laughs.

God simply didn’t plan everything he created free choice. and for all of those injustices that god certainly didn’t intend (just watch the news or your Facebook newsfeed once in awhile) we know that God IS sovereign.

He is able and WILL lay down a new and sturdy set of tracks right then and there just as quickly. He is setting up a plan to fix things all that’s required is our trust in him. He just might ask you to do something a little out of your comfort zone, in the end its not about you anyway. He will never let you fly off your handle, his ultimate plan is ultimate redemption for everyone and every kind of person.

Some of us hate heights, some of us hate anxiety, some of us hate those sudden jagged turns. All of us hate fear, and fear ultimately isn’t from God. But nothing can ever replace the euphoria and high that you get when first stepping off a rollercoaster. God is that high and God is that rollercoaster that the joys of life just cant match. Our momentary trials and discomforts and pain mean nothing compared to the joy and bliss of knowing him.

Once you finally step of that rollercoaster, whether you want to throw up or whether you can’t wait to get on again…. You can guarantee there is a feeling in you that you cant make go away because your human. You guessed it! There are chills going up and down your spine from all that adrenaline. Gods plan is completed and its onto the next adventure, all the emotions that remain are simply gratitude and thankfulness. That seatbelt will always hold you back from something far more dangerous and scary……. Yourself.

*************************inspired by 1 Corinthians 15:36-42****

I just began to write, and the words kinda poured out and this is what I came up with. To clarify I really HATE rollercoasters! The one time when I got the courage to go on one, because of my height (im really SHORT. I often get asked my age lol.) I never properly fit on there.  I sat there clinging for dear life the whole time. My body barely fit in the seat and I thought I was going to fall out. I just want to give some biblical examples of what this made me think of.
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Its during our testing’s when our true character shines through. The enemy has a much different plan for trials than God does. Gods plan is for them to bring us closer to him and for us to be able to see really see God as a ‘father, healer, redeemer, etc. The enemies plan is to tear us apart and make us want to curse and reject God. we can see that dead on and clearly in the book of Job.

Yet, Job IS the example for us to follow!…. Just like Moses found God after running away and murdering someone, not knowing who he was ‘am I an Egyptian or a Hebrew???’ God met him when he was an outcast to society, after killing somebody, Moses hated himself. God met Moses in the dessert, and that is how Moses became the powerful leader that he was with God… a rollercoaster. For me it seems that it WASN’T through the burning bush moment that Moses received his anointing…. When God met him in the desert he developed his intimacy and trust with his heavenly creator. Although he still had fear, he trusted God and he was obedient.

1 Corinthians 15:42 “So is it with the resurrection of the dead. What is sown is perishable; what is raised is imperishable.” (ESV)

Things have to die before they can grow, and not everything we plant will live. There can be seasons where we are surrounded by people pouring into our lives where we are constantly learning about God but where it may not seem as if we are learning a thing at all. That is a lie from the enemy. Your temporary season of drought is a SEASON.  Now matter how long it has gone on, its temporary. Gods plan for you is ultimately life and satan’s is not. God works through every season. No matter how frustrating, or heartbreaking they can be. Sometimes we look back with our human eyes and we grieve over those seasons because ‘God wasn’t doing a thing……  and I felt alone’


We have human eyes, even though we are new creations in Christ. Pride has a really funny way of seeping in. we are fixed on ‘the prize’ but the prize shouldn’t be the next big promotion or how god is going to use ‘us’ where he is going to take ‘us’, [notice that key word…] this life is about HIM and its funny how often we forget that. (im talking a lot to myself here too….)

There is nowhere in the bible where it says ‘I promised you that you would I would give you that promotion, that someday you would get married, etc.’ a life with the lord is not easy but its worth it. I think we should live our lives not expecting a thing from God and just watch to see how he blesses us in his timing, not vice versa. Nothing in life in planned and unfortunately much like rollercoasters: its all about the journey oftentimes, not the destination.





What inspired this poem that where the more difficult seasons…. Those seasons where it feels like your being spiritually attacked all the time, where you feel like you constantly have to fight for your relationship with God, where what should be coming naturally…. Just isn’t. its frustrating those days when you feel like crying come a lot more often and sometimes you question your sanity. “God actually everything you say in your word and do you actually LOVE me?”



The seeds we sow are eternal, even if they don’t ever come to pass on this life. Those rollercoaster seasons suck. I think that God wants to make fighters out of all of us, whether that’s in the area of intercession (prayer), worship, fasting for things, sewing into peoples lives, being a beacon of hope…  we forgtet that if we focused on God and not what the world told us how easily things would melt away. the problems certainly wouldn’t be gone but our hope would be much bigger.

Knowing God was the commandment Jesus considered the most important. Its one a lot of us have vastly ignored. We are called to model that and live the way Jesus did because no matter how perfect or blessed Moses, job, Joshua, David, etc. were they all had there faults.

Here’s the thing I have discovered that is really hard about knowing God, God is a person. Nevermind the act that he is somebody whos invisible and who we cant even see… I think a statement we have to realize is God/Jesus is not some omniscient spirit, he is holy, he has spiritual authority, he fights for you, he is a PERSON who desires relationship. God is the worst tailgater in the world.

You wouldn’t say to a friend ‘I trust you with my entire life, my entire heart, my entire soul’ unless you had spent a period of time getting to know them, discovering who they are first. Just because its God makes it no different. (and this is something that I don’t care if you disagree with me, I would like to hear your reasons as well)

I believe that we set ourselves up for failure time and time again when we say ‘God I trust you… have your way with me!’ if we do not even bother spending time to get to know God, find out for ourselves ‘who is God to me?’, reading our bibles, etc. If we simply live a life living by what we have been told and never get to know God for ourselves, we set ourselves up for failure. The great news is God is faithful and God is sovereign….. He is constantly seeking and pursuing our hearts and he wants every bit of us. He loving and gladly takes every bit of us that he can get (which personally I don’t think is fair, when he deserves every piece of me. But im excited for the day when my human nature will finally fall flat on its butt and I can give every single piece of myself to him. Because after all Jesus is not my religion he is my saviour)



 He is meant to be our friend (amongst many other things) the bible is not a self help book where you can go to when your having a bad day and find a random verse that ‘ironically fits this situation’.


im only just beginning to discover this, everytime I begin to become flooded with doubt thinking ‘its impossible to read the entire bible’ I have to pray against it and tell satan hes wrong. Iive found that the more you read your bible, the more you will discover that EVERYTHING fits together. i slowly realize how important our bible is and how it is our tool.



I don’t know about you, I don’t know what season your in…. but for me this is the ultimate goal. to be able to say I lived out this verse at the end of my life. =]     Our world needs more Job’s.



HABBUKUK 3:17-19
“Though the fig tree should not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines, the produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food, the flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the LORD; I will take joy in the God of my salvation. GOD, the Lord, is my strength; he makes my feet like the deer's; he makes me tread on my high places.”


-Much Love
Chelsea