Saturday, May 19, 2012

twists and jagged edges {a poem}


Rollercoaster {a poem}

I have learnt is that life with God truely is a rollercoaster
.
You never know where he will take you, the ride is terrifying but we always have a
safety belt on.

God is never going to kick us out of the rollercoaster and launch us out, he
ll never accidently undo the seatbelt just because he is annoyed with our screaming.

Sometimes we become so terrified by the ride itself that we forget it’s about the destination. We forget that we have a seatbelt on the whole time
. If that seatbelt where to ever come undone, boy would God would be in trouble!

We forget that Jesus said ‘IT IT FINISHED’
The rollercoaster can be about the ride, but for people who hate rollercoasters it is about the destination. {as a roller coaster hater myself, I quite often think WHY is this fun!?}
In Gods eyes…. Its about the ride and not the destination. Sometimes the rollercoaster ride is fun and when its over were sad. Sometimes the ride can be quite frankly hell…. But its only once were at the destination that we can actually appreciate the ride we just went on.

We get so caught up and anxious that we forget that god made that rollercoaster, he knows EVERY twist and turn of it just like he made us. He isnt surprised when life there is something we never planned, maybe he wanted it there all along. He isn’t surprised when we freak out and say to him ‘umm God-did you see what just happened!?!?’ he probably laughs.

God simply didn’t plan everything he created free choice. and for all of those injustices that god certainly didn
t intend (just watch the news or your Facebook newsfeed once in awhile) we know that God IS sovereign.

He is able and WILL lay down a new and sturdy set of tracks right then and there just as quickly. He is setting up a plan to fix things all that’s required is our trust in him. He just might ask you to do something a little out of your comfort zone, in the end its not about you anyway. He will never let you fly off your handle, his ultimate plan is ultimate redemption for everyone and every kind of person.


Some of us hate heights, some of us hate anxiety, some of us hate those sudden jagged turns. All of us hate fear, and fear ultimately isn’t from God. But nothing can ever replace the euphoria and high that you get when first stepping off a rollercoaster. God is that high and God is that rollercoaster that the joys of life just cant match. Our momentary trials and discomforts and pain mean nothing compared to the joy and bliss of knowing him.

Once you finally step of that rollercoaster, whether you want to throw up or whether you can’t wait to get on again…. You can guarantee there is a feeling in you that you cant make go away because your human. You guessed it! There are chills going up and down your spine from all that adrenaline. Gods plan is completed and its onto the next adventure, all the emotions that remain are simply gratitude and thankfulness. That seatbelt will always hold you back from something far more dangerous and scary……. Yourself.







*************************inspired by 1 Corinthians 15:36-42****

I just began to write, and the words kinda poured out and this is what I came up with. To clarify I really HATE rollercoasters! The one time when I got the courage to go on one, because of my height (im really SHORT. I often get asked my age lol.) I never properly fit on there.  I sat there clinging for dear life the whole time. My body barely fit in the seat and I thought I was going to fall out. I just want to give some biblical examples of what this made me think of.
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Its during our testing’s when our true character shines through. The enemy has a much different plan for trials than God does. Gods plan is for them to bring us closer to him and for us to be able to see really see God as a ‘father, healer, redeemer, etc. The enemies plan is to tear us apart and make us want to curse and reject God. we can see that dead on and clearly in the book of Job.

Yet, Job IS the example for us to follow!…. Just like Moses found God after running away and murdering someone, not knowing who he was ‘am I an Egyptian or a Hebrew???’ God met him when he was an outcast to society, after killing somebody, Moses hated himself. God met Moses in the dessert, and that is how Moses became the powerful leader that he was with God… a rollercoaster. For me it seems that it WASN’T through the burning bush moment that Moses received his anointing…. When God met him in the desert he developed his intimacy and trust with his heavenly creator. Although he still had fear, he trusted God and he was obedient.


1 Corinthians 15:42 “So is it with the resurrection of the dead. What is sown is perishable; what is raised is imperishable.” (ESV)

Things have to die before they can grow, and not everything we plant will live. There can be seasons where we are surrounded by people pouring into our lives where we are constantly learning about God but where it may not seem as if we are learning a thing at all. That is a lie from the enemy. Your temporary season of drought is a SEASON.  Now matter how long it has gone on, its temporary. Gods plan for you is ultimately life and satan’s is not. God works through every season. No matter how frustrating, or heartbreaking they can be. Sometimes we look back with our human eyes and we grieve over those seasons because ‘God wasn’t doing a thing……  and I felt alone’


We have human eyes, even though we are new creations in Christ. Pride has a really funny way of seeping in. we are fixed on ‘the prize’ but the prize shouldn’t be the next big promotion or how god is going to use ‘us’ where he is going to take ‘us’, [notice that key word…] this life is about HIM and its funny how often we forget that. (im talking a lot to myself here too….)

There is nowhere in the bible where it says ‘I promised you that you would I would give you that promotion, that someday you would get married, etc.’ a life with the lord is not easy but its worth it. I think we should live our lives not expecting a thing from God and just watch to see how he blesses us in his timing, not vice versa. Nothing in life in planned and unfortunately much like rollercoasters: its all about the journey oftentimes, not the destination.





What inspired this poem that where the more difficult seasons…. Those seasons where it feels like your being spiritually attacked all the time, where you feel like you constantly have to fight for your relationship with God, where what should be coming naturally…. Just isn’t. its frustrating those days when you feel like crying come a lot more often and sometimes you question your sanity. “God actually everything you say in your word and do you actually LOVE me?”



The seeds we sow are eternal, even if they don’t ever come to pass on this life. Those rollercoaster seasons suck. I think that God wants to make fighters out of all of us, whether that’s in the area of intercession (prayer), worship, fasting for things, sewing into peoples lives, being a beacon of hope…  we forgtet that if we focused on God and not what the world told us how easily things would melt away. the problems certainly wouldn’t be gone but our hope would be much bigger.




Knowing God was the commandment Jesus considered the most important. Its one a lot of us have vastly ignored. We are called to model that and live the way Jesus did because no matter how perfect or blessed Moses, job, Joshua, David, etc. were they all had there faults.

Here’s the thing I have discovered that is really hard about knowing God, God is a person. Nevermind the act that he is somebody whos invisible and who we cant even see… I think a statement we have to realize is God/Jesus is not some omniscient spirit, he is holy, he has spiritual authority, he fights for you, he is a PERSON who desires relationship. God is the worst tailgater in the world.

You wouldn’t say to a friend ‘I trust you with my entire life, my entire heart, my entire soul’ unless you had spent a period of time getting to know them, discovering who they are first. Just because its God makes it no different. (and this is something that I don’t care if you disagree with me, I would like to hear your reasons as well)

I believe that we set ourselves up for failure time and time again when we say ‘God I trust you… have your way with me!’ if we do not even bother spending time to get to know God, find out for ourselves ‘who is God to me?’, reading our bibles, etc. If we simply live a life living by what we have been told and never get to know God for ourselves, we set ourselves up for failure. The great news is God is faithful and God is sovereign….. He is constantly seeking and pursuing our hearts and he wants every bit of us. He loving and gladly takes every bit of us that he can get (which personally I don’t think is fair, when he deserves every piece of me. But im excited for the day when my human nature will finally fall flat on its butt and I can give every single piece of myself to him. Because after all Jesus is not my religion he is my saviour)



 He is meant to be our friend (amongst many other things) the bible is not a self help book where you can go to when your having a bad day and find a random verse that ‘ironically fits this situation’.


im only just beginning to discover this, everytime I begin to become flooded with doubt thinking ‘its impossible to read the entire bible’ I have to pray against it and tell satan hes wrong. Iive found that the more you read your bible, the more you will discover that EVERYTHING fits together. i slowly realize how important our bible is and how it is our tool.



I don’t know about you, I don’t know what season your in…. but for me this is the ultimate goal. to be able to say I lived out this verse at the end of my life. =]     Our world needs more Job’s.



HABBUKUK 3:17-19
Though the fig tree should not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines, the produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food, the flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the LORD; I will take joy in the God of my salvation. GOD, the Lord, is my strength; he makes my feet like the deer's; he makes me tread on my high places.”


-Much Love
Chelsea

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