many words come to mind when i think of las vegas. the first of those is 'home.'
this time last year i was nothing short of a mess. i was furious at God, i was burnt out and eshausted, stress was my middle name and i was hiding my battles. true community was not something i had ever truely known. going through the motions and pretending to be 'ok' had been my life for more years than i would care to admit.
i was hungry for something that i had no idea what it was. having a heart for the lost doesnt really work unless the person who can truely heal wounds is a part of your life. i craved seeing a dramaric change, i was ignorant to think i could do that. i wanted alot of things and none of them had Jesus at the center. i didnt care about gods timing i cared about mine.
this past year has been long, its been extremely diffucilt, but its also been amazing. God cared more about me than i did, God cared more about filling my heart & changing me than he did giving me what i wanted. only my maker and saviour truely knew my heart. he knew what i needed and after years of just praying to God screaming to him asking for something different... and it wasnt what i thought it would be. i look back now and realize that if God had answered every deperate prayer i'd repeatedly prayed during that season.... i would not enjoy my life today. i definately would not be where i am now.
where there is death/sin, grace abounds all he more.
never once had i been in a season that god began to reveal to me that all the time. i didnt think that he cared. here in kona im am realizing some of the things he had taught me in vegas all the more powerfully. God heals, God is a father and God is love.
although some minor things like my fears of flying have not gone away.... figuring out that when i lean and trust on him hasn't. grace is a gift, pain is temporary, but jesus is eternal. and i have never been more glad.
i could not have gone on those journey without 12 incredible people. [and some really special staff] i am proud of each of you. i love each of you and i am so excited for what god is doing in each of you.
Sadie, Arielle, Cherilyn, Meredith, Hope, Cathy, Abbey, Katie, Himmat, Sean, Joe, & Jake....
i love you all so much and im excited to see where God takes each of you. there are no words....
looking back on the best days of my life right now. all the crazy laughter fests, arguing, sleepless nights, times of praying with & for eachother and wondering what the heck we are going to do with our lives. i wouldnt take any of it away and if i had the chance to do this all again, i dont think i could pack all my bags fast enough.
xoxo.
munchkin
this time last year i was nothing short of a mess. i was furious at God, i was burnt out and eshausted, stress was my middle name and i was hiding my battles. true community was not something i had ever truely known. going through the motions and pretending to be 'ok' had been my life for more years than i would care to admit.
i was hungry for something that i had no idea what it was. having a heart for the lost doesnt really work unless the person who can truely heal wounds is a part of your life. i craved seeing a dramaric change, i was ignorant to think i could do that. i wanted alot of things and none of them had Jesus at the center. i didnt care about gods timing i cared about mine.
this past year has been long, its been extremely diffucilt, but its also been amazing. God cared more about me than i did, God cared more about filling my heart & changing me than he did giving me what i wanted. only my maker and saviour truely knew my heart. he knew what i needed and after years of just praying to God screaming to him asking for something different... and it wasnt what i thought it would be. i look back now and realize that if God had answered every deperate prayer i'd repeatedly prayed during that season.... i would not enjoy my life today. i definately would not be where i am now.
where there is death/sin, grace abounds all he more.
never once had i been in a season that god began to reveal to me that all the time. i didnt think that he cared. here in kona im am realizing some of the things he had taught me in vegas all the more powerfully. God heals, God is a father and God is love.
although some minor things like my fears of flying have not gone away.... figuring out that when i lean and trust on him hasn't. grace is a gift, pain is temporary, but jesus is eternal. and i have never been more glad.
i could not have gone on those journey without 12 incredible people. [and some really special staff] i am proud of each of you. i love each of you and i am so excited for what god is doing in each of you.
Sadie, Arielle, Cherilyn, Meredith, Hope, Cathy, Abbey, Katie, Himmat, Sean, Joe, & Jake....
i love you all so much and im excited to see where God takes each of you. there are no words....
looking back on the best days of my life right now. all the crazy laughter fests, arguing, sleepless nights, times of praying with & for eachother and wondering what the heck we are going to do with our lives. i wouldnt take any of it away and if i had the chance to do this all again, i dont think i could pack all my bags fast enough.
xoxo.
munchkin
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