learning to trust god? check
learning to be wreckless for him? check
worshipping without fear of man? check
Lately God has walked into my life in new ways, and he has radically been changing me. God's grace and radical love has begun to pour into every part of me. In a word.... it is hard, it is startling, it is confusing, and it is beautiful. Many times in my life I cried out with God asking him to reveal himself. He never answered those prayers then, but he is answering them now. I learnt through the dessert phases on my life things that I may never have realized from simple wisdom from the Holy Spirit.
Today has been a day of rest. Much needed rest.
Although God has taught me alot, I haven't taken alot of time to ponder and cherish what he is doing. For the first time in my life I am learning to live a wreckless life for God. I have no idea what is going to happen after this season here in Hawaii-but God has given me tremendous peace about it all.... This season is turning out to be exactly what I asked and prayed for a really long time.
God has begun to teach & show me how sweet his presence is. "Do you recognize this place? It's the place you were made. The place where your father made you." Everytime i enter into the prescence of God i cant help but think of that quote. When we worship, it can be awkward, it can be scary and fear can rush in like a flood until you let your walls break down. Then it is beautiful.
We become like children again. We encounter the prescence of God. We become abandoned to the world's standard of mediocry and death. We become abandoned to God.
Think of a popcorn maker:
there is a long pause as the machine heats up. you heavily anticipate for the popcorn (fruit) but you have to wait for the machine to get hot.
A few kernels pop because they have come in contact with the heat.
A few kernels pop but if you were to unplug the machine then.... you would not have nearly enough popcorn for a snack, only a few morsels. There is some fruit (popcorn) but not enough.
If you wait long enough.... All of a sudden.... All the Kernels have exploded. but eventually they all turn into something wonderful!
In life, some things take longer than others to develop.
"even if you have no plans to become better.... he (God) will still love you because that is his nature.
what will change is our ability to receive his (God's) love"The Inheritance by Jonathan David Helser
God is putting me in situations i have literally prayed and asked for for years, and they are now coming to fruition. This monday night God encountered me in a very different way that he normally does.
He began to show me a place of closeness & intimacy with his heart. I sat there and i asked God "what is this emotion???? What is this place."
he simply responded "it's joy"
Shortly after that I sang to God out of that place. Feeling full spiritually but still longer for more for the first time in a very long time. Then.... out of nowhere the room where a bunch of wreckless worshippers were silent. I was still singing.
The worship leader stopped singing. The room was quiet. Except for me.... Then I opened my eyes and noticed he was looking at me. "Excuse me? Will you sing over us?"
I cowered. I thought it was a joke, but no. This guy was dead serious. I cowered and slowly got up to the stage. A microphone was handed to me-everyone was staring at me and i began to laugh. God then began to speak to my heart and ask me "will you actually go for it??"
every fear i used to have about worship simply was not present. although i was nervous, fear began to vanish. although this moment only lasted less than 8 minutes it felt much longer. i cannot tell you what i sang because i don't even remember.
by the end of that night i had never been SO glad to stop singing, but i had never been so glad to encounter so much freedom and joy. it came from my inner voice, the place i never used to have words for being released.
the love of god damages fear.
-Chelsea
learning to be wreckless for him? check
worshipping without fear of man? check
Lately God has walked into my life in new ways, and he has radically been changing me. God's grace and radical love has begun to pour into every part of me. In a word.... it is hard, it is startling, it is confusing, and it is beautiful. Many times in my life I cried out with God asking him to reveal himself. He never answered those prayers then, but he is answering them now. I learnt through the dessert phases on my life things that I may never have realized from simple wisdom from the Holy Spirit.
Today has been a day of rest. Much needed rest.
Although God has taught me alot, I haven't taken alot of time to ponder and cherish what he is doing. For the first time in my life I am learning to live a wreckless life for God. I have no idea what is going to happen after this season here in Hawaii-but God has given me tremendous peace about it all.... This season is turning out to be exactly what I asked and prayed for a really long time.
God has begun to teach & show me how sweet his presence is. "Do you recognize this place? It's the place you were made. The place where your father made you." Everytime i enter into the prescence of God i cant help but think of that quote. When we worship, it can be awkward, it can be scary and fear can rush in like a flood until you let your walls break down. Then it is beautiful.
We become like children again. We encounter the prescence of God. We become abandoned to the world's standard of mediocry and death. We become abandoned to God.
Think of a popcorn maker:
there is a long pause as the machine heats up. you heavily anticipate for the popcorn (fruit) but you have to wait for the machine to get hot.
A few kernels pop because they have come in contact with the heat.
A few kernels pop but if you were to unplug the machine then.... you would not have nearly enough popcorn for a snack, only a few morsels. There is some fruit (popcorn) but not enough.
If you wait long enough.... All of a sudden.... All the Kernels have exploded. but eventually they all turn into something wonderful!
In life, some things take longer than others to develop.
"even if you have no plans to become better.... he (God) will still love you because that is his nature.
what will change is our ability to receive his (God's) love"The Inheritance by Jonathan David Helser
God is putting me in situations i have literally prayed and asked for for years, and they are now coming to fruition. This monday night God encountered me in a very different way that he normally does.
He began to show me a place of closeness & intimacy with his heart. I sat there and i asked God "what is this emotion???? What is this place."
he simply responded "it's joy"
Shortly after that I sang to God out of that place. Feeling full spiritually but still longer for more for the first time in a very long time. Then.... out of nowhere the room where a bunch of wreckless worshippers were silent. I was still singing.
The worship leader stopped singing. The room was quiet. Except for me.... Then I opened my eyes and noticed he was looking at me. "Excuse me? Will you sing over us?"
I cowered. I thought it was a joke, but no. This guy was dead serious. I cowered and slowly got up to the stage. A microphone was handed to me-everyone was staring at me and i began to laugh. God then began to speak to my heart and ask me "will you actually go for it??"
every fear i used to have about worship simply was not present. although i was nervous, fear began to vanish. although this moment only lasted less than 8 minutes it felt much longer. i cannot tell you what i sang because i don't even remember.
by the end of that night i had never been SO glad to stop singing, but i had never been so glad to encounter so much freedom and joy. it came from my inner voice, the place i never used to have words for being released.
the love of god damages fear.
-Chelsea
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